When stars were falling, I wished for him.

I am doing European Voluntary service in Germany. But I met my special person when I was still home in Latvia, two weeks before coming here. It was unexpected, unsuspected and maybe even unintended.

I love that feeling of not being tied down in one place. Not being responsible for anything but myself, not having any serious plans for life. I felt like a bird, ready to fly where ever the wind blows me. I have experience with traveling, so I was not scared of moving abroad. But then it happened, I met this person and my whole world changed. I was astonished by the way he was. Since the first day I understood, that  every day spent with him was going to make my leaving harder. And then came that big decision. Actually many decisions: Should I meet him again? Maybe I don’t have to leave. Could he be the one? Maybe it's going to hurt. Is it worth it?

The answers came at the same time. If it's going to work out, it would be worth more than any pain it could cause. And I am so happy and proud of this decision. We spent two weeks in a bubble of happiness. And leaving him wasn’t easy but it's been five months now and I haven’t had a day without him and his support.

I was expecting this year to be a challenge for me. I imagined voluntary service would be like slavery or something of that sort; living in terrible conditions, having no food and so on. But it turned out to be totally different. Sometimes I am feeling like a princess having everything I could wish for; food, apartment, nice work. The only painful thing is the problem of finding friends here, I don’t know why, but it feels that German people are not really outgoing and open for new friendships. My friends, people who are volunteering here with me, are saying the same. That they feel lonely here. And I understand them. If I didn't have my special person I would be so depressed.

And that is it. Sounds simple but it feels like the greatest happiness in this world. Hearing his voice saying that everything is going to be alright, fills my body and mind with peace. I don’t know how it's going to turn out. Whether this is a story about an amazing person I knew or a story about endless, unlimited love,  I don’t know and actually don’t care: because what I have now is all I have, and I just have to be thankful for it.  And I am.