December 11, 2020 seemed like an ordinary day - everything is somehow back up and running in Czech Republic, we got work to do again, you can feel that Christmas is coming, but here's me: completely lost focus on life mentally because things just don't seem right.
Well, not that everything is wrong, it's just that everything feels "not textbook" and I'm having a hard time of figuring IT out. Of course, I can't say, what IT is, because I'm in this kind of a bubble mentally. Everything feels weird, but not "it's bad" weird.
Kid Cudi released his newest album "Man On The Moon III - The Chosen". A true masterpiece. I spent the whole Friday nigjt just laying in bed, not answering texts, ignoring the outside world just so I could experience the whole album top to bottom. I was truly impressed as it lowkey sounded like my mind - it felt like my mind just kept giving me messages about what
needs to be done to get myself back together mentally. The place where I'm at isn't bad, it just isn't where I truly want to be in.
Listening to music like that really helps me experience this "outside the body" feeling. It felt like I'm floating, things just felt perfect.
I don't want to go too much into detail about the album itself because I feel like it's a personal and individual experience and everyone who likes thet kind of music should give it a try.
Lately things have been fun - spent a lot of time just enjoying life itself. Football practices are back on, which is great as I can do some activities outside of the usual life. We had snow, and Ostrava finally looked beautiful.
This might me all over the place but that's how I've been like lately - having a million different thoughts in my mind and it just takes time to process all of them, but as of now I can say that I'm in a better place again, which helps a lot in getting through the rough situation globally.
Bottom line - find peace in little things you do and everything should go well.
Stay safe and enjoy your time!