#2 Autumn comes

Seeing trees change their color and finally losing their leaves, makes me thinking: What about my situation? Am I one of these trees, trying to keep my leaves as long as possible but loosing them to time? I am entering a new phase of my life and staring off in a new country. I love my work, it fulfills me and keeps me busy, but I kind of lost the place where I am rooted. Even though I tried to be as far away from home as possible ( and I have been very successful so far), I get homesick. Not exactly to a place, to my home country. But to a feeling, the feeling of being home somewhere, to feel comfortable and secure around the people. People I have know for years, who have seen me in good and in bad times. Because here, the people who are passing me, who I get to know everyday and who I spend my time with, just known me for seconds and for some small talk. I try not to let these feelings overcome me, but convert them in a driver, in a driver for change. I want to be more outgoing and to show the world who I really am. And then I can see in the eyes of strangers myself and feel home - Within me.