Letter to my most special person

First of all, take a deep breath. In that big breath you've to keep everything that makes you feel wrong along this year. Keep it, keep it inside for three seconds. Feel it, remember everything. Ask your memories. And then, let that breath go. Yeah, I know you feel empty some times. During this year we've afforded a lot of difficult situations: to be new, not understand anything at the beginning or just to go shopping in another country for first time. Everything we knew how to do perfectly was now a challenge.

But here is where you come. Where you're growing up.

Because as me, you change here. You have changed here. You’ve pass through difficult moments and you’ve understood society sometimes’s crazy. They want us to be perfect. The want us to arrive to every goal we purpose to ourselves, but also the ones they put on us. In work we have to be perfect, with friends we have to show ourselves strong because if not we are weak… But… What happens if we feel weak sometimes, as we felt strong in other times? what if we fall as the same than other times we feel that we can touch the sky? What happens if we didn’t get a goal or we didn’t do what they waited of us? 

Absolutely nothing. 

And during this year, and also in all our lives, most of the times we are sad because life ask us for too much…To be giving all of us in work or school even when that day we are not okay, to look like we are nice with our clothes and our mood…But that doesn’t matter at all. 

We're doing our best in everything, so just stop push yourself or think that you are not good enough… You are doing an EVS, or an Erasmus or a long time away from your home, c’mon! You are doing much more than lot of other people! So stop to think about all the things that are pushing you to focus in all the things you won, you are winning and you will win.Watch you. You’ve done a lot and that you are here means you are being really strong! You should be proud of you. Why to be sad?

If it’s because the goals others put on you, just forget it, because you are the owner of your whole life, no others, so please, don’t let them take your happiness or write the goals you have to get in your life. And about your goals? Maybe you are in the way to get them, but damn, don’t focus in what you didn’t do… Look, look behind you! And all the things you did? The first time you were able to go shopping with no problems? Or that time you traveled alone? And what about the day you talk in a very good accent a foreign language? You should be really proud of that things! 

You’re growing up more than other people with this year! I look at you and I see it. You. Are. Just. Amazing. And if other people, anyone, push you, just kick them in the ass and say ‘here I am, and all my problems are just like ai’. I’m growing up more than you with this and I’m so proud with the way I’m doing!'

And yes, I know sometimes you miss home. You miss your friends or even your mum’s silly things… But that’s exactly what has to put a very big smile on your face. Because all of that will be always, always with you. And one day you'll come back, and stronger than ever, you will say them with the loudest of your voices a big, really big thank you. Thank you because you have been my support. Something that was always there. Hey, and also I’m sure you will appreciate all more than before, so that’s another positive point!

So see. Yeah, sometimes you are sad, but everything that is happening will make you stronger, so why more tears, why more insecurity. I’ve showed you that you're a treasure. You know a lot of more things about life than other people know. And that’s beautiful. You’re beautiful. You are doing it in a good way. You are the best version of you. The best story we can tell about this year. Because this is your story. The story how you grew up in the time you were away. The story how you discover you were your most special person along this journey.